A visualization that has often worked well for me when trying to remind myself to “let things be and trust” is envisioning the ebb and flow of the tide. If we get onto a float and ride the rhythm of the tide rolling in and then back out again we may notice there is less resistance than if we are standing in the ocean fighting the intensity of the current.
Read MoreYou can learn to take control of these thoughts and retrain this voice to be kinder, more patient and loving towards yourself. The hard part is remembering that this takes time to develop. Much like learning anything new is it takes practice. And more practice until you master it. If there is one thing to take away from this is to remember YOU DO NOT HAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS VOICE.
Read MoreDoes it feel like I’m going around in circles? Because that’s a good representation of the feelings within our own minds. The constant roller coaster and merry-go-round effect of wanting to find ourselves but needing (and wanting) to also pour our entire selves into our children. It’s exhausting. At times it feels unbearable. At times you feel numb. I find myself struggling to navigate my own emotions and endlessly trying to find my way back to a self I once knew or a new, better self I’d like to know.
Read MoreThis isolation is destroying us. It has diminished our ability to receive the emotional support we get from our family, friends and professionals that help keep us balanced.
Read MoreA PANDEMIC? Anxiety has been something I have struggled with my entire life. In recent years it’s gotten worse. Most days it’s very manageable .. aside from the darker days. But right now, all I feel is anxiety. It is rushing back like a wave in the middle of an ocean during a tornado and I am the little lifebuoy that doesn’t stand a chance.
Read MoreThe road to vulnerability is a long one. Not static. Not easy. Not without cost. Not without the brilliant dichotomy of beauty & tragedy. The shedding of skin. Transformation. Losing oneself to an identity you may have spent years building & the subsequent unexpected grief that accompanies that loss.
Read MoreToday, I had an “ah ha” moment where I realized; I’ve turned every single aspect of daily functionality into a task on my to-do list of life. I am consumed with the idea of organizing and formulating the next task that needs to be complete.
Read MoreHere I go, unveiling my story, god this makes me feel extremely vulnerable and anxious.
How did I get here?
Read MoreIt's like this constant pit in my stomach. It keeps turning ever so slightly, uneasy, and nauseating. It feels like it only takes the brush of a light breeze to send it whirling into full spiral mode. Grasping for anything that feels stable - anything that feels real in the world of make believe the mind creates.
Read MoreI can remember writing this journal page vividly. My hope was if I could see the patterns of the spiraling down, I could grab ahold of the signs and triggers of the isolation I was feeling. It took a long while before I could begin creating a plan to dig myself out of the recycled patterns of the darkness I was living in.
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